See, this was the year my grandmas dementia got even worse, she went into hospital for 7 weeks, and then finally got in to a dementia care home. She's still at the home now but it's not good. Seeing your grandma go from being a lovely old lady to not knowing who she is, who you are or what on earth is happening to her is not nice.
Also this year I had my end of year 11 GCSE exams. I am very bad at coping with stress, pressure and also quite bad at exams, I mean I can do the work and know the subject like the back of my hand yet in some exam structures (mainly the science exams) I cannot answer the questions in the way they want me to. I got through those exams and did well, not as well as I would of hoped but good. And I finally escaped from high school, that is one good thing to remember about this year.
So after finishing high school I had a long fairly dull and unproductive break before starting sixth form college. And don't get me wrong, that was fun, I love college. I was however not prepared for the wrath of work that came from college the moment I stepped in, and this first term has been exceedingly hard. I don't think I've got to sleep before 1am since I started, in Art I have still not gotten up to date with churning out piece after piece of 'decay' themed art, I am very bad at going places to take photos for photography and not having photoshop on my laptop really doesn't help, I have a psychology exam in 12 days which counts towards my final A-levels which we were expected to spend the whole of the Christmas holidays revising for (as well as catching up with art) and, well English Lit wasn't that stressful. I'm hoping this term will be easier, not in terms of work but I think I'm a lot more prepared for what to expect and how to deal with it.
And amongst all these things I've had to put up with friends who aren't very friendly, family members who don't care about other family members, trying (and failing) to get a job. And the whole making new friends thing which I as a very quite, shy and not that interesting person am really bad at.
So, that's why 2010 (and being the age of 16) really, really sucked for me. I know I should be grateful- looking at my life it's kinda great, I have food, water, a nice house, money, a great family, some really good friends, supportive parents. I know this and am so, so grateful for that. But this year comparatively to most years of my life just sucked.
BUT, 2011, hello! It's very nice to finally see you. I'm quite positive about this coming year. I am at this very moment having a rather large clear-out/tidy up of my room, I have a revision schedule all planned out as well as many things to look forward to:
- Having turned 17 last month, I am now legally allowed to drive, my provisional driving licence came today and as soon as we book the lessons I'm on the road- I'm so so so VERY EXCITED for this.
- Having settled into college it's a lot less scary, I know my routine now and am comfortable with it.
- I'm going to re-decorate my room, not a lot, just readjusting the colour scheme a little. (buying new bed sheets, lamps, rugs, curtains)
- I'm slightly more confident than last year.
- I'm going to re-start playing the piano, not starting lessons again or anything like that, just practising once or twice a week, learn some popular pieces.
- I'm going to start daily blipping again, I slacked off towards the end of this year and I want to be much more consistent in 2011.
So, yeah. I've set my hopes high for 2011, possibly a little too high. But it should be fun, and as starting a blog is a new years resolution of mine, I've started well. I'm hoping to blog about once a week, hopefully it won't always be as self-centred as this one but it's really only for me to have something to commit to and have fun with it doesn't matter.
So goodnight, for me the new year will come along in 2 1/2 hours, I hope you all had a lovely year and I hope you all have a great new year. :)
